There have been ideas circulating around my head for the past few days.

So much that I want to write down, but I am afraid to. So much is being awakened, but I feel like it should appear docile for the time being.

So much about myself that I am realizing more and more each day that I have forgotten, or better yet, I have traded for lesser things. It is almost scary because a lot of things I had written down in years past, songs I have written, etc. are all coming to life in front of me.

Prophetic words that at the time, I thought were just (okay, not JUST, but you know what I mean) words from the Lord, taken out of Psalms... are now living and active, and I am seeing the importance of them right before me. Almost like, the Lord showed me some things, and perhaps at the time, I kept asking why... and now the why behind the what is being revealed.

To say that the Lord knows all and goes before us, is such an understatement.

Not only does HE KNOW, but He truly goes before us to prepare a path that we may follow. Keeping our eyes on Him, to watch His every move, only to imitate His. In a moment where everything and everyone is for you, and you're writing songs about rejection, really make no sense. When everything is great and there is no storms, but we write songs that sing about Him being our refuge in times of need.

He sees ahead and knows what's going to happen. I am not sure if it's an "unfortunately" or "fortunately" He knows our pains and weaknesses, and prepares us in a way that will help us when it is time to cross that bridge into something new.

He just knows. It's as simple as that.

Anyways. I am feeling the urge and green light to go. Be apart of something bigger than myself, because it is there, that the Lord really is given full reign to do what He wills, because we have no ability in our own strength to see things come to pass.

I'd like to be apart of something that isn't labeled "cool" by the cool clothes people wear; skinny jeans and vnecks. An awesome working sound system; air condition. A really cool picture that I'd want tagged on facebook to prove to the online jungle that I am doing something that matters (our left and right hands shouldn't really know what the other is doing anyway, right?)

I am not having a paradigm shift force because I am tired of western culture and how we handle things, although, God knows that I am momentarily done with how things are run around here.

All those things aside, there are a people out there who sincerely have never heard of who Christ is.

They are here in the United States, as well. Please, do not get me wrong.

To walk into a foreign country and hear them sing songs to the Lord (which I just saw via youtube) completely broke my heart, and made me realize... we are all one family. He is our Father. Nothing separates that.

When I say that I am ready, I guess I am the complete opposite, because are we really ever ready? Probably not. I am ready, however, to let go of a few things.

The next few days will reveal.