eyes, children, trust.

i learn so much by looking into the eyes of children.

God shows me much through the dependency of them.

the simple words, "i need help, carla." because, clearly, if i don't help them, there is no way they can do what they want to do.

they don't usually doubt that i won't help them either, because usually they grab my hand and bring me towards whatever is it they need help with. there's no wave tossed in the ocean with them.

they are carefree, too. except one boy... he is always sad. whenever we ask him how he is, his response is:

"i'm sad." and he runs to hide. my heart is broken. and again, how many times am i like this? if this little boy always ran, and i never went to help him out, most likely, he would stay in his cubby all day. my desire is to see him happy.

this sounds much like God.

HIS joy, for my sorrow. and 9/10 times, i'm the one running away saying, "God, not now."

because, i just love dwelling on things. i don't really love it, but it seems easier.

easier.

ba! things never have come easy to me. haha. trusting isn't easy either, but with the grace of God, he really does renew my mind and keeps is steady in that area.

in any case. i learned so much today at work. i love those children. sometimes, i'm too affectionate with them, but i can't help it. when you see those little eyes... ahhh!

when seth left today he said, "BYE CARLA, I'LL MISS YOU!" and blew me a kiss. he is a wonder to me. a very sad home story. i feel like my hugs heal. haha. every child wants to be loved. we are born with that instinct. when we're little, (especially if we have siblings, haha) when we see them get attention, our first reaction is : why not me?

at least, for me, that's how it was. haha.

and to think, the Lord loves these kids. they are wanted by Him. we are wanted. we are loved and LIKED by Him.

i don't ever blog two days in a row.

time to go to work for parents apart.