i love when things are awakened in me. ultimately, the first love in all of us. when this is awakened, it's as if the darkness never existed. in reality, i suppose that is the whole point of God and his love. to enable us to forget the past, in some sort of way. i don't know that we ever FORGET, but the sting of death has no victory in our lives, as a result of this wonderful love.

on another level, though, i really love reading. the present day theologians/philosophers (if you will). cs lewis is such a favorite of mine, despite the fact that i have to read the pages 2 times over before i actually grasp what he is writing, and even then... it is questionable. haha. but i really do love it. he offers such a different spin on a lot of things that i think on a normal level.

the weight of glory is probably one (for me at least) of his most difficult reads, because he really extracts ideas that are, again, so simple, but he adds about 10 ft of depth to them. the very idea that before i can ENJOY something, i really have to work at it, to be able to observe and notice my enjoyment for it. and he parallels this with salvation. and how we are in some way, taught that working for our salvation (not like, BY works, but working to understand it) is not all bad. we should not do this to get something in return, but in reality, how am i going to know WHAT i am enjoying if i don't SEARCH it out? makes a little sense.