I am not one to openly wine about things. I don't see a reason to. In passing, sometimes I'll say something under my breath, or if I know you well enough, you know how I feel about certain things that not necessarily anyone else knows. But lately, people have been getting on my nerves. One in particular. Nothing I do is good enough. I absolutely hate taking on that attitude, but this is the truth. I have been working on a project, and literally every time I "finish" it, there is something else to be done. Something that isn't the way they want it. All this jazz. I'm frankly getting upset about it...
I have never been reprimanded; no one ever says my work isn't good enough. Maybe it's a wake up call. We could always use one. My heart is not always in the right place, and I know this. I think it'd be a scary place to be if I thought my heart was always right; or better yet, if I was always right. None of us are entitled, and when I am approached like that... I get a little upset. Offended, maybe. Which would result in the idea/truth that I haven't died to myself yet. Which, I get.
"Help me boast in my condition: You're the God and I'm the man."
Sounds funny reading that, "I'm the man." But... this is the truth. He is God, we are man. This is our condition; our condition of weakness. It's the truth. I don't know how to deal with these people on my own. I'm getting a bit frustrated, too.
I need grace, either way.
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